Sometimes I get frustrated because I can't do it all. I have so many interests and I wish wish wish to high heaven I could find the time to do everything...I want to be able to read books outside of my course work, I want to learn how to knit, I want to sew, I want to paint, I want to go out dancing, I want to have dinner parties, I want to go running, I want to take naps, I want to have time to sit & be quiet and just think, I want time to cook myself delicious meals, I want to travel everywhere, etc etc. It's so overwhelming that I don't know what to do with myself. I generally do something irrational, like spend money that I don't have or waste time that I don't have. Today it was a bit of both. I decided that I want (and must) learn how to knit...bought expensive yarn...and realized that I was now short on cash and time...super.
This yarn was so beautiful & reminded me of the sea, all the shades of green and almost blues, and I pictured myself in France taking a little stroll along the beach after teaching class or perhaps popping in out of the wind for an espresso at a little cafe. This ability to envision myself with unpurchased (generally superfluous & expensive) objects seems to be a recurring problem...as per a certain pair of boots, which have yet to be worn. On the bright side I do have a certain wonderfully goofy someone in my life that knows how to knit & I imagine this will be an excellent reason to get together on a cold day & knit up a storm. A bientôt.